Commitment

What does commitment mean to you? And how do you stick to those commitments or promises? Promise is a big word; when you promise to do something, anything, you are committing 100-percent of all you've got to accomplish that promise, right? For me this statement is completely true. When I promise to do something for an employee, co-worker, boss, friend, family member, husband, parents, and children - I honestly, sincerely do whatever it takes to "make it happen!" Not much can get in my way when I promise or commit to do something for anyone ... except when it comes to me!

Why is it so easy to break that promise or commitment to yourself? And I'm not just talking about New Year resolutions 'cuz we all know where most of those promises end up. But how ‘bout when I say, "okay, enough is enough - I will be a more patient parent or I will exercise, I will eat right, I will take the bus (no matter how much I highly dislike it!), I will take better care of myself, get more sleep, and give my new job all that I've got.” Truly my list could go on for miles.

I’m wondering why, when you make such commitments to yourself, are they so easy to break? Because I don’t hold myself accountable? Perhaps, that could be my reason. Sure I can beat myself up for eating that late night cookie and only feel guilt. I’m only letting myself down for not keeping to my promise. I’m not letting anyone else down, just me … what gives?

I suppose it is time for me to step up to the plate and hold myself accountable. First, in my defense, I feel I need to state that I’ve given into this new job thing. I have promised, mostly to Brian, but also myself that I will give this new job all that I have. And, well, I can honestly say – I am starting to let go of Bothell. Bothell is moving forward and I am to. A Seattle co-worker made a ‘stop-me-in-my-tracks’ comment the other day, “come on, this is your dream job.” And right there, she kept talking but I have no idea what she said. In my mind I thought, is it? So as I let go of Bothell and fully commit to my new job – I embrace it. And try so very hard not to feel so stupid most every minute of every day. It is a constant struggle but the possibilities of ‘making my footprint’ is truly exciting.

Anyway, back to accountability. We are headed to Hawaii in August, my family, the four of us. We are going with another couple, 2-weeks in complete bliss (even with my children!). Through blogging, as my source of accountability, I am going to lose weight (20-lbs is my goal, but will settle for 10-lbs by August). I am committing to becoming more active and actually following through on a promise/commitment I make to myself. Eating right; to be defined specifically but I know late night cookies are out. I will involve the family; kids are always active and running around, I commit to joining them. Let’s see if I can hit my goal in 2-1/2 months. I will blog my ups and down with this journey, as this will be my form of official accountability.

All this to begin … tomorrow!

Thanks for reading,
Nick